today and saturday i dressed up as the moon goddess from the story of the chinese mid-autumn moon festival. the dress was pretty crazy, not to mention the hair. i gave away free mini moon cakes in this chinese mall in mississauga. overall it was fun and was good experience. compliments are always nice. now i know how Mulan felt like at disney world heh. dressing up and having ppl approach her. but then again she probably gets paid a lot more than i did.



Will was oh-so-sweet as to not only drive me there but also watch and wait for me until i was done (a whole 8 hr day.) hes my moon prince. i am one of this thousands of wives. lol jk.

Jay was also oh-so-sweet to fill in for casey for the position of the bunny mascot. har har that was pretty funny i must say. all you see is this big, smiley rabbit giving out lanterns to kids. he did a good job =D yay and badminton starts tmr. my week is getting more and more busy by the minute.

i also gotta chance to talk to the supervisor lady of this whole promo thing, someone who my mom worked with a long while ago. i have just made another connection with an important promo person =D yay. future promo job hookups for meeee.

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hmm.. i think i may just use this blogspot and then i'll just extrasweetplease.com as my portfolio site. maaaybe. when i have time hehe. it'll just be nice and disney for now.

new and refurbished!! check it out.
extrasweetplease.com

aaahhh.

its so pleasant and relaxing to hear the familiar apple start up sound. to think, even something that is heard everyday could be taken for granted. i brought my mac to another place this time, a real place. this time instead of updating my software + things and charging me $50, they have contacted apple and replaced my logic board. yaaay for my baby. finally all better.

now, back to work for school.
and back to work on the website that ive been putting off.

so tomorrows the big day when i will be face to face with mister avoidance. someone whom i havent seen in a year, havent really mended things up with in maybe two, and someone i dont remember seeing a smile from in too long..

my emotions get the best of me and my insides go crazy. not really sure what to expect.. should i wear my heart on my sleeve or act as if i dont care? will he be receptive or will he run away again?

weep not for the memories..

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ive been having some good talks with different ppl lately about my situation at school. if you're not filled in yet, im in a state of confusion as to if i should be in my program or not (more importantly, if i should stay or not.)

i came into first year with this huge interest in graphic design. will it stay an interest, or will it be a profession? lately ive been really considering my passion for children, teaching and leading. well, is it really a passion? passion being something i would die for, suffer for. passion of Christ comes to mind. mm passion? not sure yet. but its definitely not graphic design!

can i truly be passionate for something? to be selflessly devoted to it, to suffer for it? besides God and some close family, its really hard to consider anything else that could be a potential profession. but neways..

so like i was saying, ive been talking to ppl. my most recent enlightening talk was with Mr. Cho at uhs. he gave me a side of the story that i havent really thought of..

he told me that its good that i want to be a good steward and finish off the degree, but if i know that my passion lies else where, its not that crazy to go for it..

will i enjoy my next three years in design?
mm, probably not a lot.

can i survive?
probably.

is this what God wants?
eek. not sure!

would He put me here in something i dont have a passion for?
or does He have greater plans with my design degree?
have i given my studies up to Him?

the answers are all pretty blurry right now.
i guess only time (with God) will tell..

under AppleCare's terms and conditions, it says

The plan does not cover:
damage due to acts of God.

har har. thats pretty funny.

ugh greaaaat.
above all things,
my computer decides to freeze and not turn on again.
whoopey. data integrity here i come.

last night i went to watch Hotel Rwanda, part of the toronto int'l film festival.

a really remarkable movie at the least. suspenseful, heart breaking and breath taking. i dont rmb the last movie that made such an impact. or maybe i just dont watch enough movies to say, but neways

based on a true story, the film takes place in war stricken rwanda. about the genocide that took place in rwanda in 1994.

a country that has been divided by tribes, the tutsis and the hutus. a result of tried but failed imposition of democracy. the hutus are out to wipe out the the rival tribe tutsis once and for all. hundreds of thousands were killed in this massacre.

amidst the killing and pain is a man named Paul, a manager of a hotel. his hotel later becomes a refugee home for hundreds of tutsis. with incredible intelligence and bravery, he saved 1500 ppl.
(ugh, words cant really express all that he did.)

the amazing thing was that paul, the character portrayed in the film, was actually there watching the film. a standing ovation was the least we could do to show how in awe we were. its one thing to capture by it in a film, but its another to have someone really go thru it in real life. the movie touched upon many really great things.. it was so sad.. when they called for help from countries like britain and france. but none came to the rescue because they were not worth the man power. a camera man from the west he talked to, gave him the honest, but hurtful truth. that even if the massacres got broadcasted, ppl would go "oh how horrible" and go back eating their tv dinners. how we, in the developed world,
turn a blind eye to the horrors that happen around the world..

it really belittles the little things i worry about daily. the little fights that mean nothing in the end. what matters when you're worrying about surviving til the next day?

so many things on my mind right now..

with school starting up, my stress levels will undoubtedly be rising. new challenges, new projects, and new perspectives. thanks leo for the talk about my purpose in design.

with badminton starting up and the new salt committee responsibilities, there will be more on my plate than last year.

with an awkward encounter on friday coming up also.. my past fears and pain that had subsided for so long, may just have get pulled out from the dust one more time. what are u to say to someone you havent spoken to in a yr?

can i really handle more unnecessary stress? lately my patience has just run dry. i cant handle the bickering, the stubborness, the lack of support. all this stress and frustration is just boiling over and eating me up. and at the peak of it all, when support is needed most, he leaves and goes on as if i dont exist. thanks alot. i honestly dont know how im going to keep going..

pray for me please..
for guidance, for support, for strength, for patience.

i'm so tired that i can't sleep
standing on the edge of something much too deep
it's funny how i feel so much yet cannot say a word
we are screaming inside, we can't be heard..

second yr of design. first day of class. type 2.

ugh.

is it a bad program?
oh no, its a great program for design..
but its just so much work, so hardcore,
that it sifts out all the mediocre students.
..like me =)

these four yrs are going to be so saturated in design
im going to be barfing it out by the end.

am i in the wrong program?
ive recently had this sudden urge to change..
to go into recreation and leisure.

hm.. wouldn't i be taking too much school if i do that after design?
i've never liked school too much..
and now im thinking of doing more =/

but if i have the design degree and the rec diploma
then i keep my doors open right?
what doors? i dont see doors. meh.

i guess i should just stay in design for now..
besides sleep, lots of money and energy
what do i have to lose?

wow summer has gone by fast, even after it was four months long.

i'd definitely have to say the highlight of my summer was my vacation to florida. disney world was a really enjoyable experience, wouldn't trade it for anything. got to spend it with my family and with my baby.
saw many sights + attractions, gave me a change to get away from every day life. who could ask for more?

softball was also a big part of the summer. playing til your muscles ached, cheering til your lungs hurt, and getting super dark and burnt. man, i've never gotten so dark in my life. florida and lots of softball sun will do it for ya. argh, now i have to get a new shade of foundation >.<

playing on dunamis was sooo fun. the leadership was awesome and the team spirit kept up. the MAT just shows how much it was noticed.
great job dunamis! i may want to stay another yr on dunamis to help out.. ooh we'll see what happens =)

aiya, another year of school awaits me, piles upon piles of projects just waiting to pounce on top of me. late nights and early morning classes are just creeping up behind me.

the only thing im really looking forward to that has to do with school is the 3rd yr internship which i want to travel for.. im considering heading to vancouver were leo worked at burnkit a bunch of christian guys who designed some christian labels, bibles and cd covers. if i can live with crystal, whos heading to ubc, it'll be a go! gotta start saving up now, bye bye badminton money =/

another thing im looking forward to is working with jay! we're going to teach badminton together for the town of markham i had a blast serving with him at Charis Christiain Fellowship at uhs, and hes a really close buddy to me, so this shall be fun =D hah cant wait for all the little girls to drool all over him again. when he substituted for me last yr all these little girls thought he was so hot hah.

other small highlights of the summer include:
volunteering at dragonboat, spending tons of time with my swt corn, seeing old friends, meeting a bunch of new ones, playing random softball games, watching the playoffs, rhcbc summer retreat, spending time with my cousin from tahiti, seeing my uncle and aunt from philadelphia, and the list goes on and on.

so i guess summers over huh?
all the softball, the friends, the outings are all gone *sniff* ta ta for now summer. see u next yr.

summer 2004
places visited: sarasota and orlando in florida
movies seen: yugioh, butterfly effect, the village
softball games played: 14
too much of: go for tea
time spent with friends: not enough
lasting memories: enough to last a lifetime

wooohoooo!
i beat will in a yugioh duel yday, fair and square.
with many ppl as my witnesses heh.
muahahaa. one day i will be world champion hah.
hah so gay.

aiya schools starting soon..
i am sooo in the summer mode still.
i dunno how im gonna get going =/

hey everyone!
i just started a new blogspot for will,
so if u have time check it out!
wilax.blogspot.com
pretty easy to rmb right?

dunamis, the way and lumas?
most appreciated teams?! craaaazy.





i wouldnt have had it any other way. (ha)
the way and lumas have made the season worth while for everyone.
thanks guys! u did awesome.

and wow, do i ever look uncomfortable up there hah.
too many ppl on too small of a stage =P

the way, the way the way the way...

PICTURE TIME!




from dunamis' - syd + bob (our coach + asst. coach) / nitty and grace


john and his sillyness / gummi with his pimping pinstripes


pinking it out with goldie / the cheering man albert from lumas


my only girl friends hah. roz from slingers and daphne from capstones


theres mr liang from lumas and mr lau from lions (gl in queens u study geek!)


timberly boy who doesnt like to smile boo / steve whom i havent seen in so long!


casey + brian with their pearly whites / me and some gangster boys


mmm trophy.. next yr glen, we'll fight it out in the championships =P


luma-nis igniting one last time.